Hey all you guys! Its been way too long but I'm here now. First and foremost I want you to update me on your lives.
something exciting that's happened to you recently
what you last consumed (interpret as you wish)
something you're looking forward to
Now that that's over with, things have been really good these past few days. That's not to say that I've hit some all time lows in the past month, but I've also hit some all time highs so I'm not complaining. I'm learning that sometimes you have to look at challenges and trials in life just as learning experiences. I have a birthday coming up and I honestly don't know what happened to the past year. So much has changed and I think they've all mostly been good for me. Instead of trying to sum up everything that I've felt or have gone through since my last journal, I'll make another fancy bullet list from excerpts from my journal:
My hand was glued to yours in a friendly grip.
All the things I did and could have done will go be put away in a box and then in a closet somewhere in my brain. And I'd open it later when things would make more sense.
So here's to changing shit, getting shit together, and making new shit, and becoming the dumb shit fuck that I've always shitted myself trying to be. I'll be.
Its all said through eye contact.
All three of us on the couch had our eyes closed.
You looked me in the eyes and fed me all the false hope in the world.
I'll walk to the water today.
The people beside me were only feeling what I imagined they were feeling and I only noticed the smiles and the acceptance and the hard work and the naked honesty.
The rest of us followed suit and we flew with the current taking us home home home. Come back to me.
Headaches, therapy, sticky speckled hands, aching ears, blurry cross-eyed eyes, and tired hearts. Brains are sick, swaying legs, sunny sky, scissors, beats, sympathy.